Be Magnified

2010-08-12T22:13:00.002+08:00

I am moving my blog to www.jths.wordpress.com. See ya!

2010-06-10T14:44:00.002+08:00

What am i doing now? Just finished my 4 wisdom teeth extraction and resting at home. Went pretty successful, i ll like to say. Haha. Anw ll have 8 days of mc at least. Woohoo!

Btw let me share what i had done during the last 2 weeks. From 1-4th June, i went for this WYUMI Camp oraganised by the New Tribes Mission ( NTM ). It was the most awesome camp i had ever attended. V Memorable. ;)

(Short post i know, but i am feeling pretty lazy now :p) Shall blog again soon!

2010-05-04T03:43:00.002+08:00

Wonder whether some events in life were actually pre-planned by God? That God knew about how ur life will be before u knew Him?

On Saturday morning, I received a SMS from my eldest sister. She had asked me whether the name 'Jeremy' is the same as 'Jeremiah', which is now my baptized name. I was puzzled as it was quite random. As I asked my sister why she asked so, she said that she discovered an old diary entry which she had written English names for every sibling, including herself. And she saw that she had written my English as 'Jeremy'. This old diary entry was written 18 years ago.

I went to check the name 'Jeremy' on wikipedia and realized that it is actually similar to the name 'Jeremiah'! At this moment, I was utterly amazed. God had actually given hints to how my life will be long before I knew Him! And He was with me even when I was a non-believer.

Never doubt God's existence in life. Sometimes in order to realize His existence, we need to seek and pray.I pray that as u read this post, you will be encouraged and that God will encounter you once again. Praise be the name of the Lord! :)

Should I eat the apple?

2010-03-31T01:40:00.004+08:00

An apple is a sweet and juicy fruit which crunches the tasty buds of our tongues. A healthy and well-desired fruit that attracts many by it's reddish freshness. Many ll be tempted to take a bite at it. However, who shall realize that it is actually rotten from within?

In the story of Snow White, the devious witch convinced the innocent Snow White
to consume her apple. And in the end, she 'died' because the apple was poisonous and was rescued by the charming prince's love kiss.

It's true that an apple a day keeps the doctor away. However, we must realize that some apples are actually rotten yet as reddish as a fresh apple. Sin is just like a rotten apple and temptation is the reddish outlook of the rotten apple that entices us to consume it.

In Genesis 3, the bible talks about Adam and Eve disobeying God's commandment
and consuming the fruit of knowledge in the Garden of Eden. After that, they became knowledgeable and since then sin was rooted to humans.

Sometimes we can't resist the temptation to consume the seemingly tasty yet rotten apple. It can be due to hunger or gluttony. These may seem exagerated though, but the point is that we can't let our desires to blind us from realizing that the apple is actually rotten, only if we examine the apple closely. Similarly, if we refuse to give in to temptations, we can prevent ourselves from making grave mistakes. Having kids due to pre-marital sex, drug addicion and crimes are some grave mistakes which we can stop only if we think thrice before acting.

Hence, we should examine the apple before eating. By doing so, we can make our lives more meaningful for the glory of the Lord because we are the temple of the Holy Spirit!

Should I eat the apple?

2010-03-31T01:40:00.001+08:00

2010-03-24T09:54:00.001+08:00

I have fallen once again. Pick me up Lord..

Time For Everything

2010-03-24T09:53:00.001+08:00

1 There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven:

2 a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot,

3 a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build,

4 a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance,

5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain,

6 a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away,

7 a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak,

8 a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace.

9 What does the worker gain from his toil?

10 I have seen the burden God has laid on men.

11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end.

12 I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live.

13 That everyone may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all his toil—this is the gift of God.

14 I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that men will revere him.

15 Whatever is has already been, and what will be has been before; and God will call the past to account.

16 And I saw something else under the sun: In the place of judgment—wickedness was there, in the place of justice—wickedness was there.

17 I thought in my heart, “God will bring to judgment both the righteous and the wicked, for there will be a time for every activity, a time for every deed.”

18 I also thought, “As for men, God tests them so that they may see that they are like the animals.

19 Man's fate is like that of the animals; the same fate awaits them both: As one dies, so dies the other. All have the same breath; man has no advantage over the animal. Everything is meaningless.

20 All go to the same place; all come from dust, and to dust all return.

21 Who knows if the spirit of man rises upward and if the spirit of the animal goes down into the earth?”

22 So I saw that there is nothing better for a man than to enjoy his work, because that is his lot. For who can bring him to see what will happen after him?

22 verses about life:)

Time for Everything

2010-03-22T19:46:00.002+08:00

9 What does the worker gain from his toil?

10 I have seen the burden God has laid on men.

11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end.

12 I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live.

13 That everyone may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all his toil—this is the gift of God.

14 I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that men will revere him.

15 Whatever is has already been, and what will be has been before; and God will call the past to account.

16 And I saw something else under the sun: In the place of judgment—wickedness was there, in the place of justice—wickedness was there.

17 I thought in my heart, “God will bring to judgment both the righteous and the wicked, for there will be a time for every activity, a time for every deed.”

18 I also thought, “As for men, God tests them so that they may see that they are like the animals.

19 Man's fate is like that of the animals; the same fate awaits them both: As one dies, so dies the other. All have the same breath; man has no advantage over the animal. Everything is meaningless.

20 All go to the same place; all come from dust, and to dust all return.

21 Who knows if the spirit of man rises upward and if the spirit of the animal goes down into the earth?”

22 So I saw that there is nothing better for a man than to enjoy his work, because that is his lot. For who can bring him to see what will happen after him?

22 verses and that's the truth about life. :)

New House

2010-03-19T00:14:00.002+08:00

In less than 2 months, I will be moving into my new house. My dad told me to pack my stuffs properly after my birthday. I thought it will be an easy chore that can be done within a day. However, that's not true at all.

Besides allocating items into respective boxes, i need to decide what to keep and what to discard. After that, I ll have to clean the wanted stuffs and make sure they are dust-free before putting them into boxes. Sounds easy? But it ll take a lot of time, I realized.

Looking forward to moving into the new house:)

21

2010-03-16T23:00:00.002+08:00

In our society, the number 21 signifies the start of adulthood. The number 21 may mean a wake-up call to those who are still living in their fantasies which only serves to plunge them deeper into the abyss of naivety. Fantasies, to a certain extent, symbolise optimism and hope in life. However, for individuals who are still naive about life, fantasies only deter them from being more mature. Some may beg to differ, but this is the truth that surfaces from experiences.

I am the youngest in the family, and certainly the most doted 1 in the family too. Many ll envy me, but I ll not indulge myself in that contentment. Great men arise from hardship, and my lifestyle is definitely not so tough. Don't misunderstand me. I am thankful to God for giving me loving parents and siblings. However, I ll want to grow in adversities. I want to be great. I want to be someone whom you will look up to. I want to be an inspiration.

My life has been a smooth-sailing 1, but I realize that in order to grow, I Need to Choose to get out of my comfort zone. Every decision is influenced by a variety of choices. I choose to be great, and I believe I will be great.

However, if I am doing so without
God, I can never be great. There are many rich men who claimed to be the wisest of all because of their amassed wealth. Well.. They are definitely the foolish among all. Obsession with wealth will only blind u and not make u great. U may be great in the eyes of the being, but
U are dirt in the eyes of God if u think u are great because of your wealth.

There are debates all around the world. They can surround topics like politics, economics, ethnics and etc. All these ll
always remain as moot points, for there are no definite truths behind suggested hypothesises. Even though these hypothesises may come from great men from the past and present. The only truth that we can rely on is the Bible which is never conflicting.

As I turn 21, I pray that I can be great for God. I know I will be great when I am with God. :)

2010-01-26T23:40:00.004+08:00

A week ago, i bought a pair of Audio Technica synthetic earpiece for $38. Way over my $18 budget =(, since i had SPENT too much during the XMAS season. However, it proves to be a worthy buy because i can really feel the groove of the music even when i am at a noisy place.

Point to notice: Sometimes we should buy expensive items because they are worth it in the long run! =)

Anyway, besides, i went to watch "The Blind Side" with James and co. There came a short question-and-reply which impressed me. The mother of Michael Oher was saying to Leigh Tuohy: "You are a good Christian lady." Guess what Leigh Tuohy's reply?

" No, I am trying to be 1."

This reply exudes humility out of her. Most of us, Christians, will feel that we need to uphold the image of a Christian and thus neglects the importance prioritising GOD above this desire. We are becoming like Martha in the Gospel of Luke, instead of being Mary who priortises God above all.
This desire is good, but if it turns out to degrade God to a lower priority, its then undesirable. Hence, we should try to become good Christians as we pray and seek God's companion and strength in this process. We need God, and God deserves this =)

2010-01-18T23:31:00.002+08:00

Hmm. What had happened today?? I went out for lunch with my mum and my da sao. Actually intended to go for a run so as to prepare myself for next thurs' ippt. I need to get to get Gold, and I will get GOLD!! So i must have discipline to train-run at least 3 times before next thurs. DISCIPLINE!!

Anyway i went to have dinner with jeremy, Hsien Xian, Jerrold Quek, Chen thong and ben seck. Had a great talk with them, expecially with Hsien Xian and Chen Thong while on our way home. Its regarding the concern that we, the youths, are becoming stagnant and should be moving on with God, which i agree and ashamedly admit that i am one of those who are stagnant in our walk with God. Seriously its time not to play games with God but get serious with Him. Thank You Lord for today =)

Ephesians 5:15-19 - Passage Lookup - New International Version - BibleGateway.com

2010-01-17T01:04:00.000+08:00

Ephesians 5:15-19 (New International Version)

15Be very careful, then, how you live—not as unwise but as wise,
16making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil.
17Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the Lord's will is.
18Do not get drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead, be filled with the Spirit.
19Speak to one another with psalms, hymns and spiritual songs. Sing and make music in your heart to the Lord,"

2010-01-14T18:23:00.005+08:00

Just went out with my mum and my aunt this afternoon, for a lunch. Was discussing life after moving into the new house. Btw my dad had sold our current house and bought a new 1 just streets away from our current house. After living in this home for 14 plus years, its kinda sad that we are leaving for a new home. Somemore the building will be demolished and a new 1 will be constructed. 5 more months to the end of our stay. Anyway since we are moving out, i guess it ll be great to have a bbq/party at home before that. And most likely it will be my 21st birthday party! See how ah since its still early =)

2010-01-14T01:58:00.002+08:00

I was pondering over the issue of " how slacked can i be in life?". Sometimes i can't help but wanna to slack. Wanna relax. However, should i be thinking like this? After all, idleness is definitely wrong in God's word. But, we need to relax at the right time so that i can prepare myself for greater challenges in life. Right? Sounds like a confused kid, i am. Haha

2009-12-31T11:44:00.008+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR! WELCOME 2010! GONNA ORD SOON LOR!!

2009-12-29T22:39:00.002+08:00

Expect the Unexpected

I just had a great church camp. I had learnt many things. So many that at certain sessions of the camp, i was in deep thoughts. So deep that i couldn't be myself for that day. As i looked back on my life, there has been so much time wasted and so many opportunities gone by. Should i have grabbed upon them, I would have done great things which God had planned for me.

Why do i say " Expect the Unexpected?" Many people expect themselves to be successful and influential. Likewise, many Christians expect themselves to be holy Christians and not backslide. In fact, every Christian has this expectation. Isn't this expectation good in spuring us to practise what God has taught and be the "light" that He wants to be in this world? To a certain extent, this logic works. Only in this world.

Once we have expectations, we are bound to encounter disappointments. No one is perfect, sinless. No one taught us to lie, to be selfish, to lust, and these are the signs of sin. Sin is present since the day of our birth. Therefore, we can never be sucessful in getting rid of sin in our lives.

However, Romans 8:2 says that " The law of spirit of life in Christ Jesus has set you free from the law of sin and death."

If we continue to expect ourselves to be holy Christians, we are bound to fail. This is because our main focal point on us. Its on me, Jeremiah Teo Han Shen, and not on GOD! So how can i become a holy Christian when my focus is not on Jesus Christ?

We can't understand everything in this world. God had made us imperfectly wise so that we will seek Him for wisdom and establish a relationship. This is what He wants. Lets imagine. God, the highest being to be present saying that " I want to be friend with you." , " I will be by your side always". Even God initiates a relationship with us, so why should we not reciprocate? We can do so by acknowledging that Christ is the Saviour whom God had sent to cleanse our sins and give us a chance to enter the Heaven. Even when the people expected a Messiah to be their King, they faced disappointments when Jesus told them that He will the king of the Heaven and not the King of the world. If they had listened carefully to what the prophets like Isaiah and Jeremiah had prohesised regarding Jesus in the Old Testament, they would have accepted. But thats not the case.

Lets not live up to our expectations in life. Rather, lets have the courage to pursue the expectations given to us in the Bible. Only then can we experience God's grace and mercy

2009-12-21T22:33:00.008+08:00

I need to post about this. This is regarding how screwed up i was during these few days, and how i manage to find God again.

Ever since Sat's morning, i was on a burning anger due to some family issues. This burning anger was there with me all the way till the end of the day. Pretty hard to remain calm for the whole day. Then as it transited to Sun, I was on a very seriously-bad slacking mood. Was on my stand-by duty in camp. I would say that i didn't do anything at all but sleeping and stoning for the whole day. The usual me will read books, chit-chat and go gym when i am free. But i just can't find the push. Lastly, as Monday came, i didn't go for the 4.8km live run. I slept till 10 plus, from 2am. After finished with in-camp issues, i was again stoning on my bed at 12plus pm.

In my mind, I was thinking about how screwed up i am nowadays. I don't pray and don't read the bible very often. I just can't find the push. Then i was pondering: " Why not i just let my bible fall onto the floor? Perhaps God will speak to me in this way and bring me back to the right path once again?" So i let my bible fall onto the floor. What happened then? The bible just faced flat onto the floor. Finally when i intentionally let it drop in a way that the bible will split, the page was regarding David and Bathsheba and Nathan rebukes David. My reaction was: " Huh?"

30 minutes more and then i need to do my work. I was desperate for a peaceful mind. I prayed to God, telling him that i just want to empty all the thoughts in my mind and i only want him to be on my mind. Trees swayed, cool winds breezed through and suddenly i found myself in a serene environment. I could only hear the cool winds breezing through, and that really calms my troubled mind.

Then when i was on my way home, i was reading this book named " Just enough light for the step I'm on", by Stormie Omartan. An extract from this book had impacted me pretty much.

" I form the light and create darkness..." (Isaiah 45:7) God sometimes allows things to get very dark in our lives in order to grow us up and teach us about Himself. And some things that we accomplish in darkness cannot happen in any other setting.

Think about what it's like when the power goes out in your home at night. You can barely function in the dark,. You walk carefully, one step at a time, reaching out for the familiar things to steady and guide you until you can find a flashlight, candle, or generator switch. If someone is holding a source of light, you reach out and take thier hand so you can move together. You don't take a step until you're certain that both of you are going in the same direction.
That's exactly how God uses darkness in our lives. We're in the dark until we see His light in it. He wants us to reach out for Him so we can walk together in the same direction. He desires that we draw close so that we sense His presence at all times.

This is not exactly the darkness of evil, which you can clearly sense. Or the darkness of our disobedience, which we know in our hearts. This is a different kind of darkness, and God says there are treasures to be found there. " I will give you the treasures of darkness and hidden riches of secret places, that you may know that I, the LORD who calls you by your name, am the God of Israel.: ( Isaish 45:3)

The treasure we find in darkness is Him."

Different from i expect as an enlightenment from my problems, God brought me into another dimension of understanding of His word. The world we are in is a fallen world, one full of darkness. Who can we seek as the beacon of hope? Jesus had died for our sins and rose again as a testimony to God's promise that Jesus would rise from his dead and become the King of the new Jerusalem. God has given us a choice to follow Jesus or not. I pray i will persevere with the choice of following Jesus. I pray that my Christian brothers and sisters will also persevere. And i pray that many of the unsaved will choose to follow Jesus.

I think i must stop saying that i am screwed up before it really happens. Thx for the reminder!

2009-12-08T00:10:00.003+08:00

Today is a pretty long day which i think is fruitful yet tiring. After dismounting from camp, i met up with my financial adviser to discuss the changes in my financial plans due to unforeseen circumstances. It was a nice chat with her. Instead of sharing with me more on the financial updates and theories, she was talking to me about God! 1st response will be: " Is she trying to use the name of God to psycho me? " Possible but after observing her body language and the flow of the conversation, such thoughts just disappear. Honestly i had already made the decision to follow what her plans for me. But somemore i need certain confirmations. I need to have faith in her. So heck la just trust her then! haha

After that, i attended my cousin's wedding dinner. I didn't expect to attend his wedding so soon. Time really flies! When the wedding got started, i could feel the marital blissfulness in the atmosphere. Then i start to imagine my wedding. Haha. Think too much already

2009-11-12T00:12:00.004+08:00

1 mth alr! That's quite a long period of no-blogging. Anyway my life for this 1 mth has been mundane and uninteresting to share, so i pray and ask God to allow me to learn about thing/s everyday. Hence i will like to share things that have happened today.

Today I am supposed to do duties and stay in camp( by right i can book out and go home). While preparing for the duties, my colleague offered to help me do my duties. * Touched. Seriously. Since i have become free for the afternoon, i have decided to meet lester and co. for a mahjong session. I was convinced that mahjong is an intellectual game, and small stakes can boost enjoyment and interaction which everyone will enjoy. Well, i am wrong! Activities which we should take part must be those that will make everyone happy in the process ( and definitely must be ethical ). At the end of the mahjong session, there will sure be winners and losers. Winners will gloat over the money that they have "earned", well the losers will moan and groan silently. So where is the enjoyment?

After mahjonging, Lester and I went to AMK Hub to look for Yvonne. That outlet which she has been working recently is so much more prospectful that the pathetic 2.5m X 5.0 m outlet in far east plaza.Lol.Anyway we went to walk around and Lester was telling me that i can sell my HP after renewing my contract, to HP retail outlets for a profit of up to 200 bucks. So why not? After 1 and a half hours of seeking outlets that provide gd prices, we went to the Singtel HELLO shop in AMK Hub to renew my contract. Only then, to my disappointment, I need my mum's IC because she is my guarantor.. Sian Sia.

Lastly, my sister was talking to me about long-term commitments into long-term investments. After the chit-chat session, i realised that i seriously need to save up a significant sum of money to buffer so that during my university years( in 2 years' time) , i will have no problems with my daily expenses. I really hope to pay everything by myself if possible. I want my parents to be happy and not to worry about me.It is important to be frugal, but i hope i will not become a stingy man =p

Wow! I have learnt so many things today! I pray that God will make me learn about more new things daily. Praise GOD! =)

2009-10-08T22:06:00.004+08:00

Its been a long time since i last blogged. Well.. still trying to get used to my new vocation in army. Many things have taken place during this near-1 mth period. Though tough, i thank God that He is still holding onto me. I pray that i can make right decisions in time to come. Instead of being influenced by my emotions, i hope that God will guide me.

*How i wish i can embrace you now

2009-09-14T23:58:00.004+08:00

The Believers Share Their Possessions

32All the believers were one in heart and mind. No one claimed that any of his possessions was his own, but they shared everything they had.
33With great power the apostles continued to testify to the resurrection of the Lord Jesus, and much grace was upon them all.
34There were no needy persons among them. For from time to time those who owned lands or houses sold them, brought the money from the sales
35and put it at the apostles' feet, and it was distributed to anyone as he had need.
36Joseph, a Levite from Cyprus, whom the apostles called Barnabas (which means Son of Encouragement),
37sold a field he owned and brought the money and put it at the apostles' feet.

Our church is on the verge of completion. $2-3 millions to be debt-free. I feel that i have been contributing to the fund-raising, yet i know thats not my all. In ancient times, the people of God have nothing to regard except God as their priority in life. They selflessly gave them all to build the house of God. For me, i admit that there are many things that i may priortise and thus neglect God in my life. Like do i have sufficient money to spend and for future expenditures? Will i still have enough to pay for my university fees? And etc..ENDLESS WORRIES!

I pray that RCC will work towards a debt-free completion of our new church building in unity, just like how the believers had shared their possessions. One in heart and mind.

2009-09-10T19:51:00.003+08:00

Today is a bad day. I have caused problems for my colleagues and men which i shouln't have. Although the truth is that my contribution was indirect, i still have a part to play. I should have been more alert and professional in my role as a sect commander ( although i am not yet one). Although its a 'sian' experience that i hope i will not have to go through again, i know it happened for reasons. And one of the reasons will be that it is meant to be a learning point for me to take note and improve as a sect comm. So yea i ll not be burdened. I ll learn from it and become stronger in aspects which i need to be.

Couldn't manage to send Chen thong off this morning due to a sudden turnout( the incident as mentioned above). I pray that God will teach him something during these 2 yrs of NS. Something that will bring him closer to Christ.

Anyway, i have just finished watching " The Green Mile". Wow what an awesome show it is! Really very touching!!

Thats all for today =)

2009-09-06T23:04:00.001+08:00

Make me always dependent on you, God

2009-08-31T23:25:00.002+08:00

Today was a very interesting day. I was expecting to book out ard 5 30pm. However, due to early appointments, i managed to book out at 130pm! WOW! So yea also managed to utilise my time well. Had lunch with my upper study NEO,met up with Chen Thong at woodlands for a chit-chat session and lastly had dinner with Lester, Jeremy Sim and Chen Thong. And we did an amazing thing. We did Street Evangelism today!! Woohoo!! Random though but personally I felt that God had encouraged me strongly to persevere and never feel discouraged even though people are not receptive. After all. we Christians are called to spread the gospel and not sell the gospel. Well we just need to commit Street Evangelism into God's hands =)

2009-08-25T19:19:00.003+08:00

Finally POP lor!! After a long struggling period of 8 months, i have become a sergeant. Great not to endure through the trainee life anymore! Woohoo!! Well, this Spec course (3 mths) was the best that i had ever gone through. In this Spec course, i had known great friends like Zhi Lun, Han Qun, Guan Hua, Andre and Clayton. These are friends whom i know that i will maintain long-term friendships with. I will definitely cherish the enjoyable moments with them and Sgts like Sgt Heider, Sgt Ming Kiat and Sgt Liang.

Well though trainee life is over, i know that there are greater responsibilities for me as a sergeant. I don't mind, really. As a leader, i feel happy because i know that i have the ability to lead. Leadership and confidence are really the 2 aspects that i have learnt during this Spec course. In the morning, Shawal came to have a talk with me. He said: " U should have become an instructor. Its a waste of talent for you to be posted to DB.If u stayed as an instructor, i know you will become a good instructor." I chose DB because i know there is where God wants me to go. However, his words had really boosted confidence in me.

However, there is 1 problem. I hope to be the detention platoon which can allow me to have greater interaction with the detainees. However, today i have realised that i will be the security platoon which does mainly guard duties and escorting of detainees. I want to be in Db because i want to understand people from the other side of life. And to spread the gospel to them so that they can be saved. To me, its a very disappointing news.

To my fellow Christian friends, please pray for me that He will put me in the right platoon and make the full use of me in DB.

2009-08-23T18:56:00.002+08:00

What is love?

Wikipedia: Love is any of a number of emotions and experiences related to a sense of strong affection [1] and attachment. The word love can refer to a variety of different feelings, states, and attitudes, ranging from generic pleasure ("I loved that meal") to intense interpersonal attraction ("I love my boyfriend"). This diversity of uses and meanings, combined with the complexity of the feelings involved, makes love unusually difficult to consistently define, even compared to other emotional states.

Bible: 1 Corinthians 4:4-8 states that:

4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.

5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.

6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.

7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.

2009-08-16T18:18:00.003+08:00

Friendship has been an issue that made me ponder during this spec course ( 3mths) period. After ending a 2 yrs and 3 mths relationship, everything seems so different. So uneasy, especially when the social life of mine had transited from relationship to friendship. Incidents during these 3 mths had made me realise that i need to refocus and regenerate efforts in maintaining friendships.This post is for the purpose of allowing my friends to understand me more, in general 2 things.

1st: God is the centre of my life, so every decision that i make will be done so with accordance to the teachings in the bible. I want to obey and glorify Him for the undeserving love that He has showered upon me by sending His only son Jesus Christ to die for my sins and giving me a chance to enjoy eternal life in heaven with Him. He is my spiritual source of strength and companionship, and I cannot live without Him. In general, I will be closer with friends in church because of the same beliefs in life. However, I also have many close friends like Zhilun, Han Qun, Yu ting, Chern Hui and Yong Jun who are not Christians. What i ll like to conclude is that i respect and cherish friends that i have around me, but sometimes i may make decisions which disallow me to spend more time with you guys because I want and need to spend time with my Heavenly Father and have fellowship with my church friends. ( Sat and Sun church services, for e.g). Hence, i hope that friends of mine will understand why i may spend lesser time with you.

2nd: I am 1 who will overlook most of people's weaknesses and expect the least out of my friends. I believe that when i am expecting the least out of my friends, my contentment will be maximised. I ll rather expect less than to handle possible disappointments. I am sorry to those who may expect a lot from me and face disapppointments because of my responses. And also not being able to reciprocate the level of commitment and efforts that are put into the friendship. Although this is who I am, i ll try to change so that friends around me will feel more comfortable. And at the same time, I ll feel that I am natually still who I am in essence and not restricted or unhappy with the changes.

God i pray that you ll make me a better friend to those who have befriended me.

2009-08-10T15:09:00.003+08:00

Genesis 25:21

Isaac prayed to the LORD on behalf of his wife, because she was barren. The LORD answered his prayer, and his wife Rebekah became pregnant.

As Issac pleaded with God for children, the Bible encourages us to ask and even plead for our most important and personal requests. God wants to grant our requests, but He wants us to ask Him.

Even then, God may decide to withhold His answer for a while in order to
1) Deepen our insight into what we really need
2) Broaden our appreciation for his answers
3) Allow us to mature so that we can use His gift more wisely

Remember to pray =)

2009-08-02T19:03:00.003+08:00

Read this on my fren Andria Choo's blog. 1 interesting post that she has. =)

Devil's Beastitudes:

Blessed are those who are too tired, busy or disorganised to meet with fellow Christians on Saturdays each week.
Their hearts are not in it.

Blessed are those who enjoy noticing the mannerisms of pastor and singers.
Their hearts are not in it.

Blessed are those Christians who wait to be asked and expect to be thanked.
I can use them.

Blessed are the slackers.With a bit of luck they may even stop going to church.
They are my missionaries.

Blessed are those who claim to love God and at the same time hating other people.
They are mine forever.

Blessed are the trouble makers.
They shall be called my children.

Blessed are those who have no time to pray.
They are easy prey for me.

Blessed are you when you read this and think it is about other people and not about yourself.
I’ve got you.

So yea be careful!!

2009-07-26T18:40:00.001+08:00

Old memories come back again..

2009-07-19T18:29:00.001+08:00

Same old feelings back again. Thought i have overcame it. Seems that i need a long period of time to recover. Why can't i just get over it once and for all??

2009-07-11T22:42:00.003+08:00

I had stayed at home for the whole day. Was worried that i may spread the H1N1 disease to others in church, even though i am not sick. ( 3 of my platoon mates have H1N1, thats why =( ) So just play safe.

Watched 5 movies today ( The Bolt, Ice Age 2, Ong Bak, Tom Yum Goong and chinese movie Brother). Now blogging and talking online =)

Hope that my sunday will be spent fruitfully at home =)

*I must remember to wash my clothes, by hook or by crook!

2009-07-10T20:25:00.002+08:00

3 things that i had learnt after a good chat with my gd buddy in camp:

1) I need to be sincere in my actions, willingly from the bottom of my heart and not because of resposibility.

2) I need to put in my best efforts in becoming a gd soldier, not a 'cui' soldier.

3) Let God handles what i cannot handle.

Ytd's talk helped me realise that sometimes i just need to do my best in being myself, and not pushing myself beyond my limits. No 1 is perfect, lest be me. I felt that through my buddy, God was teaching me to be relaxed in perfecting myself in the shades of Christ. After all, its the heart attitude that counts. I know i had done my best in being the best person i can be, and i know He knows that too. 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 says that" Be joyful always. Pray continually. Give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ." I just need to try my best and God will guide. =)

2009-07-04T13:04:00.003+08:00

Was thinking of some stuff for this 1 whole week. Just hope that i can obey God in this matter =)

2009-06-28T01:21:00.003+08:00

Supposingly to attend the elderly ministry for the 1st time. However, i couldn't wake up on time. Gosh cant believe that i can choose to sleep till overtime. Need to reflect and WILL definitely be on time for the next session on 11th july.

Didn't do much today before going to church. Use com, watch Transformers 1 on com and read newspaper and eat. From 10 am to 3 pm. Wasted 5 hours. NO~~

But thank God for today's service. Uncle Vernon and Aunt Patricia from another organisation( forgot the name alr =p) came to minister us. Enjoyed the service. Although service ended early at 6pm, we stayed till 10pm ( jamming and chatting, even dinnering in church). Felt that there is a better cohesion in the youth ministry after today's in-church interaction.

Lastly, i washed most of my clothes =)

2009-06-21T19:48:00.002+08:00

Its the dull and emo sunday evening again. For these 4-5 sunday evenings, i was always emoing and having thoughts which will deter me from obeying God's will for me. During every sunday evening, emptiness will never fail to set into my heart. It seems that that emptiness will never disappear in my life. Gosh its so tough! So tough to battle against emotional temptations! How i wish God's timing plan will now take place. Feeling so tempted to take the matters into my own hands instead of letting Him( the wisest of all) to handle and plan my future.

God, please allow undesirable thoughts to vanish right now so that i can be obedient to you. I don't want to entertain such bad thoughts anymore..

2009-06-21T01:26:00.003+08:00

Today was a tiring day. Woke up early in the morning to meet my fellow section mates for project work. 2 were sick, and my bed buddy was late for 1 hr! Angry but appeased, since he treated me starbucks =) After that, i went for church service. Was sharing on my previous post regarding the failure to wash my own clothes. Then was discussing the importance and link between faith and obedience, then linked to love. Had a fruitful discussion. After dinnering with my beloved churchmates, i went back home at 11. Talked to Jerrold and continued my unfinished project work. Still doing now. However, my bed buddy had to do more because he is the group leader. Never before had i have a nice buddy like him.=)

2009-06-14T00:44:00.002+08:00

Did a failure move ytd. I had broken my promise to love my parents through actions. I had asked my mum to wash my army clothes, because i felt dead tired. Truth? I was still energetic that i was able to use my computer till 1 am. Shameful me, seriously. I must wash my army clothes from next fri onwards!!!

2009-06-07T17:13:00.004+08:00

Isaiah 40:28-31 (New International Version)

28 Do you not know? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God,the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom.

29 He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.

30 Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall;

31 but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength.They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

During this week, i have pondered over many things. Things like how can i contribute more to the church, which areas of my life can i improve, what should i do to bring myself closer to God( a big struggle at times)...

Today, He had answered. At the end of today's service, Elder Glen had called upon those who require prayers. For me, i need it. I need the Holy Spirit to heal my heart and soul from recent incidents. When i was standing at the altar, with my eyes closed, all i could see was darkness. Here is the interesting incident. Before Elder Glen asked the elders to pray for those at the altar, i could sense that someone s definitely coming to pray for me. I could sense that the person ll be aunty doris. And she indeed came to pray for me.When she came to me, in front of me and touched my shoulders, a sudden brightness took over the darkness in my closed vision. All i could see was a light, unfamiliar yet comfortable light.Soon, I broke down in tears.

God is the healer,like He had promised to be in the Bible, and He had healed me. Now, as i blog, i recall things that God had spoken to me.He asks me to wait patiently for His good plans to take place. He wants me to love my family through actions like never before. He wants me to focus on His ministry( be it the elderly ministry or the usher ministry).What i am sure now is that God's grace is indeed present and enough for me.

This entry is for u God. Thanks!

2009-05-31T16:13:00.001+08:00

Feeling bored now. Did a 24hrs guard duty last night and returned home this morning. After that , i went to church and had lunch with my church friends. And now having nothing to do, Sian

2009-05-29T23:50:00.002+08:00

1 week has gone. Feelings faded. While on the road of recovery, it seemed that at times when i felt alright, i was not. Indeed my heart still wrench in the same way as before. Well i guess it takes time to heal the wound.And i hope that this wound will heal fast so that i can move on and use my coming life moments to glorify the Lord.

2009-05-22T00:35:00.003+08:00

Everything comes around and goes around. After all, the ending remains the same. Events ever occurring, changes ever surfacing but perhaps the ending is one which i should embrace. "Maybe this ll be better for you, son. ", with God saying this to me. I had done whatever i could had. N i believe so in God paving a brighter path for me. For everything happens for a purpose. A purpose that will be always be good for me =)

2009-04-05T17:46:00.004+08:00

Theories and Practices Life And Death Jesus

I always have a question on my mind: "Since i need to read the bible to understand and imitate Jesus, why can't i spend my entire free time on doing so? Why must i go through tough times when i don't like, eg: to interact with friends, go through army when i am feeling down. Why can't God give a clear direction in life and direct me to that point, so that i don't have to go through these unnecessary times? "

For these 2-3 weeks, i have experienced great despair. Really v painful and difficult to handle. I wondered why God put me in army, why God put me among friends who are non-Christians and why i have to endure bgr problems on my 1st day in sergeant course.

V discouraged and emo. But on the other hand, its only through tough times then will i experience GOD's realness.

I read lot of bible verses and have the tendency to read more. Its good, but i realise i cannot always dwell on bible verses. I have to practise them! Just like studies and skills. One cannot improve his skills without practising. Same for bible verses. Without practices, I cannot imitate Christ better. I cannot be a Christian like how Christ will want me to be.

These periods also allowed me to dwell on issues like life and death. I realise that i am weak, fearful and selfish, not like how i had viewed myself in the past( Strong, courageous and helpful).
If i am to encounter any life-and-death situations, i don't think i can handle them.

Jesus here i pray that you can strengthen me and help me pull through life situations. I believe there are purposes behind everything, so please help me understand them.

2009-03-29T18:47:00.001+08:00

I want to set things right. I want my Heavenly Father to be happy.

2009-03-22T01:30:00.002+08:00

Imitate God. Do the right things. boundaries are set because of Love. Rely on Him for strength.

Thank you Lord for teaching me these. I will bear them in mind.

2009-03-21T00:37:00.004+08:00

I do not know what to say, for i know whatever i say will be deemed as excuses, selfish perspectives and etc.

Mutual understanding and fairness. These 2 aspects, i believe, are the rocks of marriage. Without mutual understanding, trust and cohesion can never take place. Without fairness, unwillingness will surface between couples to respect and love each other totally.

When a man fulfils his paternal role and a woman fulfils her maternal duty in a marriage/family, harmony can then be more possible. However,in today's world, things have changed.Man and wife's family roles have been interwoven and become more complex. Nowadays men help out more in domestic affairs, while women get more involved in their careers. Is this against nature? Definitely not! Evolution is necessary and inevitable,and will never diminish the importance of mutual understanding and fairness in marriage.

Marriage is a "forever" matter. Once decided, irreversible.Hence, I must ensure that my marriage will not have problems of mutual distrust and unfair treatment towards either of us. I expect these 2 factors to be firmly established in my relationship even before marriage.

After all, i am a human born by God's grace and have emotions bestowed by Him. I am not perfectly understanding and tolerant, and definitely do not have a perfect and selfless love for others, including my loved ones. I only hope that love can be reciprocated equally to the extent that i had displayed towards my loved ones. I only wish to be fairly treated and understood of my concerns.

Sorry for today's incident. I love u darling.

2009-03-10T23:07:00.003+08:00

I feel so terrible now. utterly confused of what i should do and what i should not do. Feel sandwiched. Feel hapless. Both sides have their reasonings. Logical and rational reasonings but in conflict. Both are important to me. Why do i have to feel sorrowful for my actions, which are rational according to situations. I really dunno how to pacify either party. My consideration will never seem to establish a mutual understanding from both sides. Am i that stupid and useless in being wise to create peace and harmony between both sides? Should i decide according to my needs, or to both sides' needs? What the damn many situations always turn out to be complicated.

What should i do? I just want both sides happy

2009-03-10T22:43:00.002+08:00

POP! Finally my POP came. Had 24km route march from 5 30 am till 1245pm, with my very heavy fieldpack! In addition of the POP, i was totally exhausted. Feet sore, back and shoulder aches are just some of the body pains i suffered today. But i am still happy because 12 days of leave have finally came!

Approximately 1.5 mths since i last updated. Received my A's on fri 06 03 09. Grades weren't bad; H2:BBD, H1:AA. Should be good enough to enter the course( Linguistics and Multilingual Studies) that i want. English Language and History will my other options.

Hurray!

2009-01-31T05:23:00.002+08:00

Many things had happened ever since i had entered tekong. I had experienced sorrowfulness when my close one does not understand how much i am trying to pacify and compromise situations.Best efforts were being poured into,yet what i had gained in return were arguments and reprimands.

I am just trying to strike a balance in time spent with my important ones. I just want to make sure that everyone is happy. Why is it so difficult? Am i really selfish? Am i not understanding towards her? What i want to acheive are nothing else but peace and harmony in relationships. Are my order of priorities really screwed up? Even though things have become better , the upsetness felt in my heart still remains and the hurt is deep in my heart.

God may you remove this pain away and grant a stronger heart against disappointments and sadness. Also i pray that Lord you can improve our level of understanding and willingness to compromise when conflicts arise in the relationship.

2009-01-27T12:16:00.008+08:00

Entertainment>God?

Entertainment often comes into our mind when we are bored. Entertainment distracts me from stress and mundane routines in my life. Watching wrestling and soccer, reading soccer and online mangas seem to bring colours in my life since young. However, what is the real purpose that entertainment serves in life?

The answer is that there is no real purpose behind entertainment if we only seek entertainment as our soul refresher. I have been seeking entertainment for joy vigorously ever since A Levels ended, and i realised that ultimately it results in idleness and lost.

I pray for my friends that they will learn not to dream fantasies. Rather i pray that they dream of miracles that God can bestow upon our lives. For me, i pray that God will grant self-control. A self-control that establishes strong discipline which will then pulverise sinful thoughts and indolence in our lives . Galatians 5:23 " Gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law." Rejoice, because when we attain these characteristics of the Holy Spirit, God is nearer than before.

Be Magnified:
Verse 1
I have made You too small in my eyes
Oh Lord, forgive me
And I have believed in a lie
That You are unable to help me.
But now, Oh Lord, I see my wrong
Heal my heart and show Yourself strong
And in my eyes and with my song
Oh Lord, be magnified (bis)

Chorus:Be magnified, Oh Lord
You are highly exalted
And there is nothing
You can't do
Oh Lord, my eyes are on You
Be magnified,
Oh Lord, be magnified

Verse 2
I have leaned on a wisdom of men
Oh Lord, forgive me
And I have responded to them
Instead of Your light and Your mercy
But now, Oh Lord, I see my wrong
Heal my heart and show yourself strong
And in my eyes and in my song
Oh Lord be magnified (bis)

May God be magnified in our lives!

2009-01-07T00:20:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is my NS enlistment day. Am i excited?

HAHA! Well..I think i am looking forward to it. Independent and much manly lifestyle ahead. New buddies. A big goodie bag with great items. A new wife named SAR 21. Wow!

On the other hand, i will miss many things. My Family, Cherina and my many good friends.Youth services and Sunday services(Though only for these 2 weeks)

NS mainly represents the life of my 2009 and 2010. I do not know what is to come, but i know everything that happens will come with a purpose. Life is always full of paradoxes, so yeah may God grant me a painful yet fruitful NS life ahead! CheerS =)

2008-12-31T13:09:00.005+08:00

New Year's Resolutions

I only have one new year resolution: To be closer to God

Why is it that simple? After being a Christian for 1 year, i realise that many things are not up to us to decide. Our worldly desires cannot be attained unless they are right in the eyes of the Lord. Besides, the days without God in my life was truly unbearable.

God will set things right in my life, as long as i live a holy and righteous life for the sake of his.Isaiah 55:8-9 says that ""For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways" declares the Lord. "As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughs than your thoughts."" He knows me best, even better than myself. Even before i was born.

2008 indeed wasn't a good year for the world, and for many people whom i know. So i pray that 2009 will brighter than 2008. However, if 2009 turns out to be worse, its ok.Romans 5:3-5 says that" Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance , character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us." This, i guess, will help me pull through my army life for the next 2 years.

Rejoice, for 2009 is coming!!

2008-12-29T01:24:00.002+08:00

A miracle to share with.

Today, Sirong's handphone was lost. How high is the probability of finding the lost phone? You know the answer. After that, we went from Wisma back to Far East to search for it. After many calls to her phone and praying, someone finally picked up the phone and said that the phone is with her in the Grand Hyatt Hotel.

Even though at times when chances of succeeding seem minimal, God will still make it possible when we sincerely seek him for help. Praise to our God! =D

2008-12-26T01:41:00.004+08:00

I have a loving family. In this family, i am the youngest son who is always doted by my parents and siblings. I thank God for landing me in this family, for i know there is a purpose behind this and my life.And i am still searching for this purpose

However, this family has provided me a comfort zone which will hinder my growth in becoming a mature, independent and competent adult.

I want to lead my own independent life in the future so that i can be moulded into an independent being that i desire to be. Nevertheless, i will be filial and not to neglect them when i am capable of working and starting a family. This may be a 5-to-10-years' vision, but its good to plan for the long term.Plans? Go Australia to further my studies? My upcoming NS 2-yr life experience? University lifestyle in Singapore? I don't know but i plead that God will envisage me his plans soon.

My heart feels so incomplete and empty. I have been away from Him since the end of A's Level, and i wish to go back to him. Like before.Will You accept me back once again? Yes i know You will, but i am afraid to disappoint You again..

This Post is for Cherina

2008-12-26T00:21:00.004+08:00

Happy Boxing Day to you Darling!

I am glad that we had spent great times together during this X'mas. Sorry to be late in the morning and make comments that agitate.

Today's conversation truly inspire me to bring myself away from disillusion and back into God's Kingdom. Thank you so much for your encouragement!

Today has passed, tomorrow will come and future will loom. The 2 years of distance will indeed pose a challenge to our relationship. I have plans for my future and it involves you. I pray that during your SIA career, you will be able to resist temptations and cling onto God closely for strength and encouragement. No matter what rumours may come about, i believe that u will remain faithful. I love you =)

Last Day in Dubai

2008-12-20T17:45:00.002+08:00

Places: Jumeirah Beach and Muggs&Beans restaurant

Had fun in Dubai. Coming back to Singapore now=)

Last Night in Dubai

2008-12-20T03:34:00.005+08:00

Places: Desert, Ras Al Khaimah, Yanshuang Chinese restaurant, Souq al Bahar and French Bakery

In the morning, we went back to the desert for rides on the quad bikes. 30 min, 100 dhs(approximately $45.50) per person Although its expensive, the experience was definitely worthwhile. Mum didn't attempt because of the cold weather.

UAE(United Arab Emirates) combines of 7 emirates. Dubai, Abu Dhabi and Ras al-Khaimah are the few emirates in UAE. We embarked on a 2 hr trip to Ras al-Khaimah for rifle-shooting at 330pm. To kill time, we had our lunch at a KFC restaurant.

After the rifle-shooting experience and another 2 hr trip back to Dubai, we had our steamboat dinner at a Chinese restaurant. However, we didn't enjoy the food and the service there. Singapore is indeed a better place in terms of general services and food standards as compared to Dubai.

Since this is our last night in Dubai,instead of turning in early, we went to the Souq al Bahar for some sight-seeing. Had the opportunity to witness the gigantic structure of the current tallest building in the world, Burj Dubai Tower.

Lastly, we had our tasty cookies, ice cream and cake at the French Bakery.

What a wonderful day in Dubai!

Dubai's 7th Day

2008-12-19T06:17:00.002+08:00

Place: Global Village

No photos today because i forgot to bring my camera out! I think its largely because of the fact that i had slept for an approximate 15 hrs today.haha. We only went out at 6pm. We had dinner at a Malaysian restaurant with my brother-in-law's boss, Jordan and his family. Was surprised that he actually knew my church's pastor, Pastor Tony Tan. had a great chat with him while on the way to global village( nothing fanciful, just a v v huge global-pseudo pasar malam). Hope to meet him again in the future.

Dubai's 6th Day

2008-12-18T01:42:00.002+08:00

Desert Safari!

Dubai's 5th Day

2008-12-17T04:45:00.004+08:00

Places: Mall of Emirates, Mardinat Jumeirah, Jumeirah Hotel and Dubai Marina.

The routine remains the same such that we went shoppping in the Mall of Emirates, then to the places mentioned above for sight-seeing.* In the Mall of Emirates, we saw the ex Thai PM Thaksin Shinawatra. What a rare moment!

Tomorrow will the day that i look most forward to, because we are going to the desert safari!

*Anyway, the top 2 photos are metal structures of Spiderman and Predator.

Dubai's 4th Day

2008-12-16T05:01:00.003+08:00

Places: Burjuman Shopping Mall, Ibn Battuga Shopping Mall and Al Reef Lebanese Restaurant.

*Really wish that my girlfriend is here with me. Shopping with me, enjoying night scenaries with me at the beach and have dinner with my family, DArling i miss u=(

Dubai's 3rd Day

2008-12-15T04:04:00.004+08:00

Places: Festival City, Eagle Restaurant near Lulu centre, Palm Jumeirah's Atlantis Hotel

Its shopping again today. Went to shop at Festival City( Nice indoor architecture that has a creek which reminds me of Venice) . In addition, most items are branded and as expensive as Singapore's branded goods. So i only bought a blue-white checkered shirt which is relatively cheap. Though shopping brings me nightmares, i miss shopping with my girlfriend. haha

Next, we had pakistani food for dinner. Most of them are spicy, so i don't really like them( except the mutton curry)

Lastly, unexpectedly, we went to the Atlantis Hotel at the man-made Palm Jumeirah island.

Want to have a drink of Internet? Rolex? Dubai has it!

2008-12-14T13:39:00.003+08:00

Funny names on fruit juices. Fancy that=>

Dubai's 2nd Day

2008-12-14T03:13:00.008+08:00

Places: Souqs, Dubai Mall, Iranian restaurant and etc( For photos, 1st is the last)

Souq is a commercial quarter whereby bazaar sales are held. Went to the Naif Souq where it sells traditional clothings and perfumes, and children's items. V boring

After that, we went to the Dubai Mall which is one of the world's largest shopping centres. Other than the branded shops, there are the Aquarium, Ice Rink(Ice skating ground) and the Gold Souk( A sector in the Dubai Mall where all jewellery shops are situated in.)

Lastly for dinner, we had Iranian food. Appetisers are ok. The grilled chicken and mutton were the most delicious.

Today is a good day =D

Dubai's 1st Night

2008-12-13T02:04:00.003+08:00

Just reached dubai.The time now is 1005 pm in dubai but 0205 in Singapore. Nothing much except the long exhausted 7hr trip to dubai. will update again tmr night

Anyway, friends who are reading this now: I have a cool website to recommend. www.boingboing.net
A website full of hysteria and surprising facts to be dated. enjoy=)

New

2008-12-12T00:19:00.005+08:00

An entirely revamped blog! Had not been blogging since last year's august.

A's had already ended for a month. Wanted to resume blogging after A's but had become v v lazy since then till now.Aimless indeed. Nothing much happened this year since its an A's year.Will be embarking on a trip to Dubai tomorrow. REALLY looking forward to it man.Will try to update everyday during this 8days-trip. =DAnyway sorry friends if my facebook seems dead. will do something about it after i am back

12th August 2007

2007-08-12T23:21:00.000+08:00

It has been 4 mths since i blogged. Many events had happened. The birth of my nephew Bryan, several outings with my gf to places like Sentosa and Jurong Swimming Complex, the Famine CAmp,the mid-year block test, Father and Mother's day, my sis's birthday and etc. Still have somemore but right now i can't remember. Recently, my tests have been flunking. I failed for all my tests. 12/28 for maths, 8/20 for econs and 17/40 for CLL. This should not be the case and thus something has to been done about it.

Besides, my relationship has hit a rock. Finally, Cherina cannot take it and we nearly broke up. Gosh. A new start to my life and this time round i must do my best to protect her mentally and physically, hence provides her assurances in the relationship.

Cheers to a new beginning!

11th April 2007

2007-04-11T22:44:00.000+08:00

Fallen sick today. Had a high fever with temperature 39.3 . Cant go to sch for the next two days. Guess i ll stay at home and finish what i have to do.

1st April 2007

2007-04-01T17:58:00.000+08:00

My mind is in a whirl. Many things are going thorugh my mind. I m kind of confused with my life right now. Aims i have aren't really those which i feel i can acheive. They just seem unattainable. Studies, bowling, friends etc. Is it true that without pain, u cant gain? fairy tales doesn't exist? happiness exists only if there is despair? Things that u want to acheive have to come with sacrifices?

I just want to Succeed, but y does it seems so difficult?

11th March 2007

2007-03-11T20:26:00.000+08:00

On 9th of March, ex 115 had a dinner at Bishan J8 Pastamania to celebrate mine and winnie's birthday. Nice dinner and cake. Thx 115!

On my birthday ( 8th March ), it was the 2nd day of the orientation. Gosh! so unlucky la.

Although its unlucky, i still feel happy. Received many birthday wishes n a few presents from my frens.

Also, i had mian xian in e morning! Delicious! For e mian xian, baby woke up v early to cook it. *Touched* Received a wallet from her as my b'dae present.Thx for what u had done. Its really sweet =)

26th Feb 2007

2007-02-26T22:17:00.000+08:00

February is coming to an end soon. For this month, it seems that i had been neglecting my studies. There are special occasions such as CNY, CVD, Jogathon and Valetine's Day. Really enjoyed myself during these events. However, fun is not the priority now. Guess its time to get back on track.

Today, without knowing why, i was kind of moody. Perhaps i was too tired.However, unintentionally, i had offended someone. To the someone: Sorry. I really dun mean it.

15th February 2007

2007-02-15T20:41:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, it was Valentine's Day! Had bowling training before going back yishun to look for her. Went to AMK's Breeks for dinner and walked around AMK area till 11 30. Reached home around 1 am.

Words cant describe how i m feeling now, but i m really glad to know her and have her as my girlfriend. Thx sharon for introducing her to me! I ll cherish this relationship =)

10th February 2007

2007-02-11T01:37:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, i was my sch's Celebrating Values Day ( Kind of Funfair). Reached sch at ard 10 30am. However, it was kinda of boring. So at ard 12, Mary n i went to Amk K pool and played pool till 3 30pm. The AMK Cathay Hub is truly fascinating! Never can i imagine AMK ll have such a place. Damn cool! like citylink n marina square. After that, we went back sch. Back then we realised that we shouldn't have left sch. CVD was so Fun! Many pple were there, screaming and running ard. Get to know some new frens during CVD too =) Overall, CVD ended at 9pm.
Cleared stuffs and left sch at ard 10 pm. Went to Burger King with pork, fishball, terence and Mag before reaching home round 12 pm. Another fun and Memorable Day!! =)

2007-02-06T18:46:00.000+08:00

For the last 2 sats, my family was feasted with happy occasion, my brother's wedding! For the 1st sat, there was ROM and then buffet at home. For the 2nd sat, it was my brother's wedding dinner at Clarke Quay. Time really passes quickly. When i 1st returned from Cambodia, this unexpected news was told. I was surprisingly shocked and at the same time, i was happy for my bro. The feeling of seeing one of my siblings getting married is great. I am glad that my bro has married such a wonderful wife. Besides, she is really a gd sis-in-law to have =) Now out of my 3 siblings, 2 had married, only left my 2nd sis. SHould be marrying in 2 two years time, if not wrong. haha

2nd February 2007

2007-02-02T21:12:00.000+08:00

This week, as it approaches the weekend, it ends with a solemn note. It dealt a great blow to me, physically and mentally. I know i was impatient but i just couldn't stop myself from doing so. Once bitten, twice shy. For me, i was already bitten twice. Maybe its karma, maybe it is just not the right time yet. Mayb i should focus on my studies and do away with it. Time ll heal, i guess..

Anyway just a round up of this week. Had lessons as usual. On Wed, i had bowling training. Miss Lim advised me to start all over again, saying my poor basics are hindering me. Perhaps i should start training as a amateur from my next training onwards. Next, its the Cambodia Overseas CIP Trip Presentation. Everything went well( My First time on stage =) ). Many told me that it was the best presentation among other overseas trips' presentations. Glad to hear that!

Hope that i can recover and look on the bright side again, starting tml! =)

27th January 2007

2007-01-27T21:29:00.000+08:00

Today is my Brother ROM's DAy! Next Sat ll be his wedding dinner! Will update about it next week with pictures! =)

2 5th January 2007

2007-01-24T22:52:00.000+08:00

Today's Wednesday! Had 3 hrs maths today. Skipped econs lecture which is the last lesson.So in the end, i was with the RC people in the canteen and after that, in the council room. Then, i went for bowling training at Farrer Park. Training was alright. When it was nearing the end, my games were horribly terrible. Although i got 141 for the 1st game, i got 76 for the 2nd game. 3rd game was played halfway only and it was also terrible. Still got 4 more months to the competition. With these kind of scores, how can i perform well in the competition? Haiz..

23th January 2007

2007-01-23T15:25:00.000+08:00

Wasn't feeling well today. So in the end, i went off early to see doctor.

Hey people! I have another blog on the way. In this blog, i ll talking bout a book called " The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People" This book is one of the best books that i have ever read. Very philosophical and great analysis into people's behaviour in any kind of society. SO look forward to it ba! =)

22th January 2007

2007-01-22T22:58:00.000+08:00

Today's my Kor's birthday! Happy Birthday to my Kor! Woke up at 6 15 am. Left home around 6 55am. When i was approaching the bus-stop, my bus went off. So i waited till 7 20am for the next bus to arrive. However, the bus was full of people! So full that the bus driver just drove off. While lamenting inside myself, i decided to call my dad to fetch me to sch. Just after i asked him so, the 3rd bus came just 3 min after the 2nd 1. DAmn! What a bad morning!Luckily i was not late. Man i gonna wake up at 5 45 am tml!(Hope so.) In sch, I had GP test, CLL, GP and my well-disliked econs tutorial. Got to "praise" the teacher for improving "a bit" in her tutorial. After that, i went for bowling physical training. Pretty tough, but it seems interesting to me (*Is there something wrong with me??*) Went with ex-115 people for dinner at 8pm. Met Pork at northpoint at 8 45pm to go home together. * Hey pork! Cheer up hor! Dun waste the tag! =)

20 th January 2007

2007-01-20T23:25:00.000+08:00

Today is Janson's birthday!! Happi birthdae to Him!! Today, in the morning, i played FM and watched utube till 2pm. Went out with my sisters n Mum at 4pm to town to buy my new shoes!! HAHA. Celebrated my bro's birthday at night at Sakae Sushi. Basically did nothing today bout my studies. Have to start doing my homework tml! But tml i still have to paint e last room in my house. Haiz =( (

18th January 2007

2007-01-18T22:25:00.000+08:00

Today is a bad bad day. Morning is still alright. But everything changed after the econs tutorial. My class's econs teacher is one of the worst teachers that i had ever met. She cant teach and she dunno how to teach. Without her notes, she ll be nothing as for the whole lesson, she had been referring to her notes for teaching.( Any1 can teach then) For the whole lesson, she had been asking students to answer her questions. All the answers could be found in the notes and we lll just merely read it out. Monotonous and boring, she just caused my class's morale to hit a new low. Honestly i really hope that next lesson she ll be replaced. She just spoilt my mood for the day. Dunno how to survive if she continues..

Besides, i did something today. V guilty after that. no..

17 th Janaury 2007

2007-01-17T22:12:00.000+08:00

Today s Andria's birthday. Happi Birthdae to u! =) Anyway today is also the 1st training of the bowling team. In addition of the newly recruited year 1s, a total of 13 people went for the training. Overall its not bad. Sensed a glimmer of hope within the bowling team to perform well this year. SO lets hope after during the 2nd intake, the current 1st intake and future 2nd intake students ( hope more ll join us) ll help us in attaining top 5 in the Nationals this year! =]

14th January 2007

2007-01-15T21:16:00.000+08:00

Today is the Dragonboating Day! Finally!! Reached sch at around 12 45pm and arrived at Kallang around 1 30. Had lunch at KFC. Rainy day. At the end of dragonboating, P31( my class) got 3rd out of 6 classes. Well done P31(15 girls and 6 guys) ! Great experience. The Dragonboating Session was undescribly Great! :p

12th January 2007

2007-01-12T21:53:00.000+08:00

Today is the last sch day of the week. In the morning, my class had a CT session with our CT ( Miss Foo). She and Miss Lim are very alike in the way which they speak. During the CT session, we had appointed different class roles for different individuals. I was appointed as the MATHS REp. I hope to get a slacker role, but no choice.. Had Econs, GP, MAths and CLL lessons continuously. AFter that, i went to meet 115 pple! OMG damn long didn;t have a nice chat with them le. Studied for a while before having dinner with 115. We had teppanyaki =) Waited for pork to go home together after dinner. * Hey pork! must treat me to a lunch !* Okay lets hope that next Mon ll not rain. Because.. its the Dragonboating DAy. Looking forward to it =)

11th January 2007

2007-01-11T20:23:00.000+08:00

Today is the 1st day of School! Gosh finally it started. Damn moody today. Maybe its because of lessons. Dunno y also :? Anyway i had Econs and Maths Lecture in the morning. Studied with Didi and pork until 1 30 in the library before going off to the hall to meet up with R6. Played Captain's ball with R6.( My team was always the winning team =) only till the moment when the last game was played =( . Went home together with pork and got drenched in the heavy rain before reaching home. A moody day for me... y??

10th January 2007

2007-01-10T22:28:00.000+08:00

Today is the last day of the Orientation. To me, among the other 5 days, its e most memorable. ( Mayb its because i din go for Scouts Camp activity yesterday)Lol. Alright nvm thats not the main pt. Today, OG classes were splitted into P classes. I was posted to P31. Same class with 6 retainees( Andria, Brenda, Jie min n few more whom i dun noe yet). Kinda of contented because at least there are few whom i knew. After that, P classes were to gather in the hall for performing arts introduction. Then, lunch and further more performing arts introductions. Next, its the CCa Exhibition. At first, i really thought that bowling may not get many people to join. However, the result is overwhelming! We had around 40 people interested in Bowling and want to consider Bowling as their main CCA. As compared to last year ( according to cynthia only got a few signed up), i really felt overwhelmed.( cant find another word to describe my feelings) I know most likely many ll not turn up for training, but this does give the bowling team a glimpse of hope that future of bowling may be bright! Haha. *Thumbs up to the bowling team* Lastly, during the CCA exhibition, we (R1 and R6 respectively) had photo takings, mostly candid and informal. Ll upload the photos soon =)

8th January 2007

2007-01-08T21:25:00.000+08:00

Its the 4th day of the orientation. Was suffering from Monday Blues.(feeling bored n tired in the morning). Everything went well today. Played murderer with R1. Oh man i m officially posted to R1, no longer R6 anymore. Also R6 pple dun even remember me as once their OGL. Haiz. Nvm i still got R1. Anyway after that, we played games like Monster Machine, BLind Mice, Hula hoop etc. After lunch, coz R1 finished their lunch earlier, we went to the hall to play Captain's Ball. What a great game for interaction! Then, we played CSI. "Heard" that R1 was the best in CSI.( coz i was playing soccer at the end of the CSI =p) After orientation, i went for bowling meeting regarding CCA exhibition. Went to BK for dinner with fishball, Will and Guang Zu. Thats the end of my day =]

5th January 2007

2007-01-06T00:02:00.000+08:00

4 sub-houses( Seletar 1, Rodney 1, Peirce 1 and Admiralty 1) inside a bus

3rd day of Orientation! Played MAfia and Diditui in the morning with my OG 24. The most fun moment during these 3 days. Then, the sub-houses 1 played Captain's Ball. Initially i was with R6. But, because R1 only have 1 OGL( Joseph), so i had to join him. My R6~~~. Ok after that its the AMazing race! Truly amazing! Coz its amazingly easy =P Started the game at 12 .30pm and ended 5 30pm at e animal farm at Seletar west Farmway road. Visited 3 stations(Yishun,Bishan and Orchard) during the game. Besides, we ( Seletar1, Rodney 1, Peirce 1 and Admiralty 1) had also acheived an amazing feat! With a total of 70 plus members, we managed to squeeze~ into a small single-decker 86 SBS bus. This is definitely 1 of my squeeziest moments in my life. So in overall, i got to know new friends in R1. =) R1 and R6 rock!!

3rd Januaury 2007 Wednesday

2007-01-03T21:11:00.000+08:00

Alright today is the 1st day of Yishun JC Orientation. Reached sch around 6 50am.Will, Siew Ling, Shi Hui and i were in charge of OG24. Around 20 pple turned up. Started interaction with the OG for ard a hour. After that, while the jc 1 newly intakes went to the hall for subject combination talk, we the OGLs went to LT4 for a discipline talk by Mr Ganesh. Then, Me and Jan went to cut hair. =( My hair.. Nvm. We returned sch just nice for lunch. After that, we were redivided into sub-houses. Pretty messy and i dun really prefer it to OG24 coz didn't really know the people in Rodney 6( my grp). With R-6, we went to tour around the sch. BOring :/ Then, we went to hall for mass dance. OMG it was the tough Step-up music dance that we were doing. Quite difficult and many were struggling with it. Only few OGLs, including me =) tried to dance. But with many not dancing, the whole process turned dull. The new intakes were not really enthusiastic and this really bring our morale down. Subject Combination talk again after that and ice breaker games. Lastly, debrief.. Boring Day 1. BUT, i believe DAy 2 ll be a better day. =)

3rd January 2007 Wed

2007-01-03T02:18:00.000+08:00

OMG I can't sleep! Now is already 2 .19am and i have to wake up on 6am. SHarks! Later on it is the 1st day of Orientation. Hope dat i can stay awake throughout the whole thing ba. =l

31st December 2006

2006-12-31T11:02:00.001+08:00

Finally, the year of 2006 is coming to an end. It is time to review how i had spent my 2006.

Beginning of the year, i was posted to MI Bartley for my 1st 3 mths. Had to say that this period of 3 mths was the one of the most memorable moments in my life. Knew lots of great friends from different sec. schs and truly, I really feel fortunate to know them. They had added much joy and delight to my life.

After that, i was posted to Innova JC. Stayed for 2 days and then, i appealed to Yishun JC becuse of my 1st 3 mths friends. After my successful appeal to Yishun JC, I was ill for 2 weeks. Worse, it happened during my birthday and during the March holidays.

When sch term 2 starts, i was posted to class 115. 115 to me, is the best class that i ever had. Guys are handsome and cool, girls are gentle and pretty.Lol. From 115's 1st class outing ( BBQ at Winnie's Hse) to X'mas Party( also at winnie's hse )=p, great moments are unforgettable. The undefeated streak of 115 soccer team, the Soya Bean cup, Arts Fusion, celebrations of our classmates' birthdays, the dinner at marina bay and etc. However, never there is a never-ending situation. Although great times with 115 were over, they ll not be forgotten. I ll cherish the memories i had with 115 as i move on. Thx 115! =)

Next, its the OBS period( 5 days n 4 nights) in Pulau Ubin during holidays. I am glad that i attended the OBS coz during this period, i knew more friends from the sch cohort. The sch councilors and house exco. members, these are the new friends that i had made during OBS. During the 5 days n 4 nights, we partcipated in activities with strong unity. The games that we played together, kayaking, how we spent our 4 nights etc. OBS made me remember that teamwork is important. From the book" 7 Habits of Highly Effective People", it says that dependence> independence> interdependence. OBS reminded me of this. It reminded me that a team works better than an individual. I know this ll be useful for me in the future and i am really grateful to these OBS friends whom i knew and spent great times together during OBS. Shackleton ROCKS!

Lastly, it is the Cambodia CIP Trip!! Its my 1st overseas trip with schmates, so i was very excited. From Cambodia, I learnt many stuffs that cannot be taught in Singapore. The importance of family, the culture and history of Cambodia, lifestyle of the Cambodians. In Singapore, i can never experience the hardship that Cambodians are facing in their country. Starvation, lack of education, hygience and health problems. In Singapore, such problems are minimal.People, dun think u r very unfortunate to live in Singapore, if u feel so. Because in fact, there are many more people whose lifestyle are unthinkably terrible. So do cherish ur Family, urself and Singapore. =)

Alright now lets talk bout my happy Moments during 2006: Moments with 115 and OG2, OBS and Cambodia trip. Lol!

In 2006, sad events had happened too. Firstly, i ended a 2-half years relationship with a girl. Honestly, she is the best girl that i ever knew.But for my own selfish reasons, i made her heartbroken and broke my promises.. If you are reading this, I am truly sorry for the pain that i had caused and i hope u ll or had overcome the pain. 2ndly, i was retained. After O'levels, my parents thought that i am mature enough to do my self-studying without them interfering too much. However, i had disappointed them. I had been breaking promises to my parents. Never once that i had really fulfilled my promise to them. Hence, by hook or by crook, i ll promote to yr 2 next year. These are all that i can remember. =p

Alright, the curtains of 2006 has just fallen. Let's look forward to 2007=)

28th December 2006

2006-12-29T23:36:00.000+08:00

Today is the 115 Day! Went to buy BBQ accessories with Guang Zu, Weilun, Terence and Chern hui. After that, we arrived at Winnie's hse at 6 30pm. ( REally sorry to Eleanor who waited for 1 hr at winnie's hse) :p. Although it was raining, it did not stop us from bbqing. With the help of umbrellas and determination of our classmates, we managed to start and continue the BBq! Everything ends ard 10 30pm, with Hui min's birthday as the Finale! Then, we xchanged presents. I got chocolates for my X'mas present =)

Its great to c most of the class coming for the party, not forgetting William, Derrick, Yasothai, Mahesh and Lan dung who had something on. THx everyone!, especially Winnie for ordering the food and being the Host. Really enjoyed myself today=)

28th December 2006

2006-12-28T00:39:00.000+08:00

Monopoly (Tag-Team Version!)

Me, Shu Yi and Dao Wei

Many things happened today. Firstly, there was e OGL camp in sch. Went to sch at 8 to play bball with jan, wei lun and guang zu. After that, we played games like " Harry meets Sally", " Monster Machine", "Hola Hoop Obstacle" and " Blind Mice". For " Blind Mice", I was supposed to look for my groupmates by making a sound like" Tur-Tur" to attract my grp mates who were blindfolded like me. Although it was pretty scary, we persevered and managed to find one another. Then, it was the Mass Dance. Kept dancing forseveral times non-stop. Later, we learnt a new dance. Very hip-hop and cool, but also very difficult and tough. Really felt like taking up hip-hop dancing session. Lol!

Next, its the OG 2 party in Juvia's hse! Had fun eating while crapping and playing monopoly. We played a tag-team version of monopoly plus oligopoly style of playing. However in the end, it resulted in a defeat for my side as the alliance of the opposing team was too strong to be overthrown. Well, lets hope that this party ll not be e last for OG2, coz i ll be looking forward to more OG2 outings in the future!

December 23rd,24th and 25th

2006-12-26T10:44:00.002+08:00

On 23rd, for the whole day, i was painting. At 1st, i thought it was pretty fun and interesting. Actually, it was damn tough. Really got to respect those painters who have to paint often. Painting really make me realise that any job is no easy task. It seems easy, but in fact it is tough. Oh ya. Here i wanna wish yu ting Happi Birthdae! ALright on 24th, i went out with Jan. Met Andria and Wei Lun ltr. Bought E presents for the present x-change parties and after that, we guys went to AMK to play pool and Daytona.Then, i went to my sis' hse for christmas party! Got a Columbia pouch from both of my sisters. =) Stayed till 1 30 am before reaching home. Slept at 3am.Then on X mas dae itself, i woke up at 2 30pm. Started painting around 4 and ended around 11. Time passed quickly and X mas is over! Disappointing! Nvm i ll look forward to Og2 and 115 parties.

December 22nd 2006

2006-12-22T22:49:00.000+08:00

Today i went sch for the ogl training camp. Before that, played bball with jan and wei lun. Oh man i still losing 3-2 to Jan =(. nvm i ll catch up soon! Anyway after that, i went for Cambodia Trip Presentation discussion. Pretty fruitful as each of us knows what to do le. Then, i went for the ogl training camp. Sorry, but honestly speaking, the training camp was pretty bored. There s briefing regarding the 6 days orientation, CSI and Mass dance practice. Sounds cool in the 1st place, but dunno y in e end i felt bored ( ? ) . After the ogl thing, went to meet ming liang n others. *sharks* Ming liang injured his right arm again while playing soccer. Didn get a chance to play him. haiz. Anyway after that, we played a match, 2 on 3. My team managed to snatch the victory from the other team. Lol!

18th December 2006

2006-12-18T22:47:00.000+08:00

Today i went to Escape with yu ting, cherlyn, derrick, chern hui, terence. It has been long since i went Escape. Not much changes are seen, just that there is a Haunted House. Chern Hui was so scared that we had to pull her into the haunted house. Not only chern hui, when we went in, all of us began to fear. It was indeed scary inside the Haunted House. Flashy lights and ghosts( the staff) were used to make the atmosphere horrifying. After 2 min of torment,we finally got out of the Haunted house. Although there was air-con inside the house, we were sweating like hell after that. Then, we played almost everything except go-kart. After escape, we went to eat Sakae Sushi at Changi Airport. Purchased my coloured contacts be4 heading home.

17 th December 2006

2006-12-18T00:26:00.000+08:00

This is my 1st post! haha. ALright let talk bout what happened today. i woke up around 12pm and used com till 1pm. After that, i watched Star Awards from 130pm to 430pm. Its not as prestigious as before. Perhaps because of the SCV that my dad subscribed this june, i feel that local programmes are not as interesting and entertaining as overseas programmes. Then, i used again from 5pm to 845pm. Had my dinner around 9pm. Slacked for a while before watching the Everton-Chelsea match. Supposingly Everton should have won. But honestly, Chelsea won with quality displays. The goals were splendidly scored outside the penalty box. Nvm.. it will not pose any threat to Man U. Coz Man U is going to defeat West Ham. So Man U will still lead Chelsea by 5 pts. MUahahahaa! LAstly, something happened today. I accidentally tore my coloured contact lens which i wore once only. DAmn! alright. i ll purchase another set..

2006-12-02T14:26:00.000+08:00

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