Saturday, January 31, 2009

Many things had happened ever since i had entered tekong. I had experienced sorrowfulness when my close one does not understand how much i am trying to pacify and compromise situations.Best efforts were being poured into,yet what i had gained in return were arguments and reprimands.

I am just trying to strike a balance in time spent with my important ones. I just want to make sure that everyone is happy. Why is it so difficult? Am i really selfish? Am i not understanding towards her? What i want to acheive are nothing else but peace and harmony in relationships. Are my order of priorities really screwed up? Even though things have become better , the upsetness felt in my heart still remains and the hurt is deep in my heart.

God may you remove this pain away and grant a stronger heart against disappointments and sadness. Also i pray that Lord you can improve our level of understanding and willingness to compromise when conflicts arise in the relationship.



Posted by Hans En at 5:23 AM

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Entertainment>God?

Entertainment often comes into our mind when we are bored. Entertainment distracts me from stress and mundane routines in my life. Watching wrestling and soccer, reading soccer and online mangas seem to bring colours in my life since young. However, what is the real purpose that entertainment serves in life?

The answer is that there is no real purpose behind entertainment if we only seek entertainment as our soul refresher. I have been seeking entertainment for joy vigorously ever since A Levels ended, and i realised that ultimately it results in idleness and lost.

I pray for my friends that they will learn not to dream fantasies. Rather i pray that they dream of miracles that God can bestow upon our lives. For me, i pray that God will grant self-control. A self-control that establishes strong discipline which will then pulverise sinful thoughts and indolence in our lives . Galatians 5:23 " Gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law." Rejoice, because when we attain these characteristics of the Holy Spirit, God is nearer than before.

Be Magnified:
Verse 1
I have made You too small in my eyes
Oh Lord, forgive me
And I have believed in a lie
That You are unable to help me.
But now, Oh Lord, I see my wrong
Heal my heart and show Yourself strong
And in my eyes and with my song
Oh Lord, be magnified (bis)

Chorus:Be magnified, Oh Lord
You are highly exalted
And there is nothing
You can't do
Oh Lord, my eyes are on You
Be magnified,
Oh Lord, be magnified

Verse 2
I have leaned on a wisdom of men
Oh Lord, forgive me
And I have responded to them
Instead of Your light and Your mercy
But now, Oh Lord, I see my wrong
Heal my heart and show yourself strong
And in my eyes and in my song
Oh Lord be magnified (bis)

May God be magnified in our lives!

Posted by Hans En at 12:16 PM

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

Tomorrow is my NS enlistment day. Am i excited?

HAHA! Well..I think i am looking forward to it. Independent and much manly lifestyle ahead. New buddies. A big goodie bag with great items. A new wife named SAR 21. Wow!

On the other hand, i will miss many things. My Family, Cherina and my many good friends.Youth services and Sunday services(Though only for these 2 weeks)

NS mainly represents the life of my 2009 and 2010. I do not know what is to come, but i know everything that happens will come with a purpose. Life is always full of paradoxes, so yeah may God grant me a painful yet fruitful NS life ahead! CheerS =)

Posted by Hans En at 12:20 AM