Thursday, December 31, 2009



HAPPY NEW YEAR! WELCOME 2010! GONNA ORD SOON LOR!!

Posted by Hans En at 11:44 AM

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Expect the Unexpected



I just had a great church camp. I had learnt many things. So many that at certain sessions of the camp, i was in deep thoughts. So deep that i couldn't be myself for that day. As i looked back on my life, there has been so much time wasted and so many opportunities gone by. Should i have grabbed upon them, I would have done great things which God had planned for me.

Why do i say " Expect the Unexpected?" Many people expect themselves to be successful and influential. Likewise, many Christians expect themselves to be holy Christians and not backslide. In fact, every Christian has this expectation. Isn't this expectation good in spuring us to practise what God has taught and be the "light" that He wants to be in this world? To a certain extent, this logic works. Only in this world.

Once we have expectations, we are bound to encounter disappointments. No one is perfect, sinless. No one taught us to lie, to be selfish, to lust, and these are the signs of sin. Sin is present since the day of our birth. Therefore, we can never be sucessful in getting rid of sin in our lives.

However, Romans 8:2 says that " The law of spirit of life in Christ Jesus has set you free from the law of sin and death."

If we continue to expect ourselves to be holy Christians, we are bound to fail. This is because our main focal point on us. Its on me, Jeremiah Teo Han Shen, and not on GOD! So how can i become a holy Christian when my focus is not on Jesus Christ?

We can't understand everything in this world. God had made us imperfectly wise so that we will seek Him for wisdom and establish a relationship. This is what He wants. Lets imagine. God, the highest being to be present saying that " I want to be friend with you." , " I will be by your side always". Even God initiates a relationship with us, so why should we not reciprocate? We can do so by acknowledging that Christ is the Saviour whom God had sent to cleanse our sins and give us a chance to enter the Heaven. Even when the people expected a Messiah to be their King, they faced disappointments when Jesus told them that He will the king of the Heaven and not the King of the world. If they had listened carefully to what the prophets like Isaiah and Jeremiah had prohesised regarding Jesus in the Old Testament, they would have accepted. But thats not the case.

Lets not live up to our expectations in life. Rather, lets have the courage to pursue the expectations given to us in the Bible. Only then can we experience God's grace and mercy

Posted by Hans En at 10:39 PM

Monday, December 21, 2009

I need to post about this. This is regarding how screwed up i was during these few days, and how i manage to find God again.

Ever since Sat's morning, i was on a burning anger due to some family issues. This burning anger was there with me all the way till the end of the day. Pretty hard to remain calm for the whole day. Then as it transited to Sun, I was on a very seriously-bad slacking mood. Was on my stand-by duty in camp. I would say that i didn't do anything at all but sleeping and stoning for the whole day. The usual me will read books, chit-chat and go gym when i am free. But i just can't find the push. Lastly, as Monday came, i didn't go for the 4.8km live run. I slept till 10 plus, from 2am. After finished with in-camp issues, i was again stoning on my bed at 12plus pm.

In my mind, I was thinking about how screwed up i am nowadays. I don't pray and don't read the bible very often. I just can't find the push. Then i was pondering: " Why not i just let my bible fall onto the floor? Perhaps God will speak to me in this way and bring me back to the right path once again?" So i let my bible fall onto the floor. What happened then? The bible just faced flat onto the floor. Finally when i intentionally let it drop in a way that the bible will split, the page was regarding David and Bathsheba and Nathan rebukes David. My reaction was: " Huh?"

30 minutes more and then i need to do my work. I was desperate for a peaceful mind. I prayed to God, telling him that i just want to empty all the thoughts in my mind and i only want him to be on my mind. Trees swayed, cool winds breezed through and suddenly i found myself in a serene environment. I could only hear the cool winds breezing through, and that really calms my troubled mind.

Then when i was on my way home, i was reading this book named " Just enough light for the step I'm on", by Stormie Omartan. An extract from this book had impacted me pretty much.

" I form the light and create darkness..." (Isaiah 45:7) God sometimes allows things to get very dark in our lives in order to grow us up and teach us about Himself. And some things that we accomplish in darkness cannot happen in any other setting.

Think about what it's like when the power goes out in your home at night. You can barely function in the dark,. You walk carefully, one step at a time, reaching out for the familiar things to steady and guide you until you can find a flashlight, candle, or generator switch. If someone is holding a source of light, you reach out and take thier hand so you can move together. You don't take a step until you're certain that both of you are going in the same direction.
That's exactly how God uses darkness in our lives. We're in the dark until we see His light in it. He wants us to reach out for Him so we can walk together in the same direction. He desires that we draw close so that we sense His presence at all times.

This is not exactly the darkness of evil, which you can clearly sense. Or the darkness of our disobedience, which we know in our hearts. This is a different kind of darkness, and God says there are treasures to be found there. " I will give you the treasures of darkness and hidden riches of secret places, that you may know that I, the LORD who calls you by your name, am the God of Israel.: ( Isaish 45:3)

The treasure we find in darkness is Him."

Different from i expect as an enlightenment from my problems, God brought me into another dimension of understanding of His word. The world we are in is a fallen world, one full of darkness. Who can we seek as the beacon of hope? Jesus had died for our sins and rose again as a testimony to God's promise that Jesus would rise from his dead and become the King of the new Jerusalem. God has given us a choice to follow Jesus or not. I pray i will persevere with the choice of following Jesus. I pray that my Christian brothers and sisters will also persevere. And i pray that many of the unsaved will choose to follow Jesus.

I think i must stop saying that i am screwed up before it really happens. Thx for the reminder!

Posted by Hans En at 10:33 PM

Tuesday, December 08, 2009

Today is a pretty long day which i think is fruitful yet tiring. After dismounting from camp, i met up with my financial adviser to discuss the changes in my financial plans due to unforeseen circumstances. It was a nice chat with her. Instead of sharing with me more on the financial updates and theories, she was talking to me about God! 1st response will be: " Is she trying to use the name of God to psycho me? " Possible but after observing her body language and the flow of the conversation, such thoughts just disappear. Honestly i had already made the decision to follow what her plans for me. But somemore i need certain confirmations. I need to have faith in her. So heck la just trust her then! haha

After that, i attended my cousin's wedding dinner. I didn't expect to attend his wedding so soon. Time really flies! When the wedding got started, i could feel the marital blissfulness in the atmosphere. Then i start to imagine my wedding. Haha. Think too much already

Posted by Hans En at 12:10 AM