Sunday, March 29, 2009

I want to set things right. I want my Heavenly Father to be happy.

Posted by Hans En at 6:47 PM

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Imitate God. Do the right things. boundaries are set because of Love. Rely on Him for strength.

Thank you Lord for teaching me these. I will bear them in mind.

Posted by Hans En at 1:30 AM

Saturday, March 21, 2009

I do not know what to say, for i know whatever i say will be deemed as excuses, selfish perspectives and etc.

Mutual understanding and fairness. These 2 aspects, i believe, are the rocks of marriage. Without mutual understanding, trust and cohesion can never take place. Without fairness, unwillingness will surface between couples to respect and love each other totally.

When a man fulfils his paternal role and a woman fulfils her maternal duty in a marriage/family, harmony can then be more possible. However,in today's world, things have changed.Man and wife's family roles have been interwoven and become more complex. Nowadays men help out more in domestic affairs, while women get more involved in their careers. Is this against nature? Definitely not! Evolution is necessary and inevitable,and will never diminish the importance of mutual understanding and fairness in marriage.

Marriage is a "forever" matter. Once decided, irreversible.Hence, I must ensure that my marriage will not have problems of mutual distrust and unfair treatment towards either of us. I expect these 2 factors to be firmly established in my relationship even before marriage.

After all, i am a human born by God's grace and have emotions bestowed by Him. I am not perfectly understanding and tolerant, and definitely do not have a perfect and selfless love for others, including my loved ones. I only hope that love can be reciprocated equally to the extent that i had displayed towards my loved ones. I only wish to be fairly treated and understood of my concerns.

Sorry for today's incident. I love u darling.

Posted by Hans En at 12:37 AM

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

I feel so terrible now. utterly confused of what i should do and what i should not do. Feel sandwiched. Feel hapless. Both sides have their reasonings. Logical and rational reasonings but in conflict. Both are important to me. Why do i have to feel sorrowful for my actions, which are rational according to situations. I really dunno how to pacify either party. My consideration will never seem to establish a mutual understanding from both sides. Am i that stupid and useless in being wise to create peace and harmony between both sides? Should i decide according to my needs, or to both sides' needs? What the damn many situations always turn out to be complicated.

What should i do? I just want both sides happy

Posted by Hans En at 11:07 PM

POP! Finally my POP came. Had 24km route march from 5 30 am till 1245pm, with my very heavy fieldpack! In addition of the POP, i was totally exhausted. Feet sore, back and shoulder aches are just some of the body pains i suffered today. But i am still happy because 12 days of leave have finally came!

Approximately 1.5 mths since i last updated. Received my A's on fri 06 03 09. Grades weren't bad; H2:BBD, H1:AA. Should be good enough to enter the course( Linguistics and Multilingual Studies) that i want. English Language and History will my other options.

Hurray!

Posted by Hans En at 10:43 PM