Sunday, August 16, 2009

Friendship has been an issue that made me ponder during this spec course ( 3mths) period. After ending a 2 yrs and 3 mths relationship, everything seems so different. So uneasy, especially when the social life of mine had transited from relationship to friendship. Incidents during these 3 mths had made me realise that i need to refocus and regenerate efforts in maintaining friendships.This post is for the purpose of allowing my friends to understand me more, in general 2 things.

1st: God is the centre of my life, so every decision that i make will be done so with accordance to the teachings in the bible. I want to obey and glorify Him for the undeserving love that He has showered upon me by sending His only son Jesus Christ to die for my sins and giving me a chance to enjoy eternal life in heaven with Him. He is my spiritual source of strength and companionship, and I cannot live without Him. In general, I will be closer with friends in church because of the same beliefs in life. However, I also have many close friends like Zhilun, Han Qun, Yu ting, Chern Hui and Yong Jun who are not Christians. What i ll like to conclude is that i respect and cherish friends that i have around me, but sometimes i may make decisions which disallow me to spend more time with you guys because I want and need to spend time with my Heavenly Father and have fellowship with my church friends. ( Sat and Sun church services, for e.g). Hence, i hope that friends of mine will understand why i may spend lesser time with you.

2nd: I am 1 who will overlook most of people's weaknesses and expect the least out of my friends. I believe that when i am expecting the least out of my friends, my contentment will be maximised. I ll rather expect less than to handle possible disappointments. I am sorry to those who may expect a lot from me and face disapppointments because of my responses. And also not being able to reciprocate the level of commitment and efforts that are put into the friendship. Although this is who I am, i ll try to change so that friends around me will feel more comfortable. And at the same time, I ll feel that I am natually still who I am in essence and not restricted or unhappy with the changes.

God i pray that you ll make me a better friend to those who have befriended me.

Posted by Hans En at 6:18 PM